I've been in the entertainment industry since I was five years old. I started out as a child model and then went into acting after booking my first commercial, which was for McDonald's, also at the age of five. But then I was introduced to music and as you can tell, it kidnapped me and I was it's willing victim. I got into singing and dancing and I went to a performing arts middle school and high school as a vocal major for both. If that wasn't enough, I was writing and recording songs in the studio on the side. There came a point when it got to be too much between school and my music and I homeschooled my way through 11th and 12th grade. I had homeschooled for 7th and 8th grade, which I completed in one year, so it wasn't too bad to go back into it for the last two grades of high school, which I also completed in one year. By the time I was 16, I had graduated high school, had an album out with recognition from organizations, and was the current Miss Teen Asia USA. And what you get from that story was my successes, but no one really understands my journey. Through all that, there were so many times I wanted to give up because I was rejected and overlooked and told I wasn't good enough...so I wanted to give up. But I didn't, and look at where it's gotten me.
I feel like I'm finally finding my path.
Last week, I was feeling a little down. I was doubting my skills, my intelligence - basically myself. It was a horrible state of mind, but it all went away on Saturday night when I performed for an Indonesian event. There were hundreds of people there, and I got to perform two of my songs, and at the end, when everyone cheered and went up to me after, it reminded me why I started in the first place. I love singing and I love seeing the smiles that I might have helped put on their faces. It was a humbling feeling and, of course, such an adrenaline rush.
And then there are my great friends who help me through my hard times and are always there supporting me. My best friend Sofia is definitely one of them. She was there during the performance, just like she is for most of my performances, and I'm so lucky to have her in my life.
Sofia actually has a blog, too, but it's a fashion blog and I get to be her model! We do little photo shoots and they're so much fun to do. Here are a couple shots. Check out more pics at sofiaklof.blogspot.com
I also have my new radical sisters! My girl Jessica Radical slept over Friday night and helped me get out of my funk. We had so much fun, and we thought we would put together a little video to show you just a little bit of what went down that night. Be warned: WE ARE CRAZY.
Though the journey is hard, after all the fighting is done, it will all be worth it in the end. It's like Thomas Edison once said: "Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up." I will never give up on my dreams or myself.